"Teacher, do you not care that we are perishing?"... "Why are you terrified? Do you not yet have faith?"

Do you not care that we are perishing?

Mark 4:35-41
On that day, as evening drew on, Jesus said to his disciples:  "Let us cross to the other side."  Leaving the crowd, they took Jesus with them in the boat just as he was.  And other boats  were  with him.  A violent squall came up and waves were breaking over the boat, so that it was already filling up.  Jesus was in the stern, asleep on a cushion.  They woke him and said to him, "Teacher, do you not care that we are perishing?"  He woke up, rebuked the wind,  and said to the sea, "Quiet! Be still!"  The wind ceased and there was great calm.  Then he asked them,  "Why are you terrified?  Do you not yet have faith?"  They were filled with great awe and said to one another, "Who then is this whom even wind and sea obey?"

"Teacher, do you not care that we are perishing?"...
"Why are you terrified?  Do you not yet have faith?"

Lord,

It is so easy to feel this way when things get rough, when it looks as if I am not going to find a peaceful solution.  It is so easy to lose sight or to forget your faithfulness and to hold on to you through those times.  Sometimes it feels like I'm a child in the middle of a crowd so packed together that you cannot see your feet, a crowd that is in a frenzy to get somewhere and although you have my hand and I am holding tight, I cannot see you because of the people you are pulling me through.  I am just a child and all those smashing in on me, crushing me are tall adults that even block the light from above, so I am also in very little light, just tryin to hold on to your hand and fear enters my heart and I am almost paralyzed with that fear as I look around and see no way to safety and peace.  Yet you are there holding my hand prompting me and sometimes pulling me forward.  At those times I often question why you brought me to that place in the first place. Then I often realize you didn't take me, I wen there myself for whatever reason and you went with me to keep me safe even thought you warned me not to go or I went out of my own selfishness or desire for some forbidden thing.  You do not leave me there even though I got into the mess all by myself.  You stick with me, even when I cannot see you and sometimes I forget you are there, or I blame you for my being there and you do not get angry and throw my stupidity, my selfishness or any other faults that got me there into my face and say, you got into this mess by yourself, so you get out by yourself.  No, you are patient, waiting for me to ask you for help, to repent and ask you for forgiveness so I can put my mistakes behind me and look around and see you and allow you to guide me out.  Lord, you are always patient and calm, you never yell at me and chastise me for my faults even when I deserve it so much.  You are the most loving father that I can imagine, the only father that is perfect, that will never hurt me, that loves me and accepts me regardless of my imperfections and regardless of all the stupid things I may say or do.  You have never abandoned me like the others.  Lord, please help me to always remember you are there and to call on you first for help when I need it.