And if a house is divided against itself, that house will not be able to stand

Mark 3:22-30
The scribes who had come from Jerusalem said of Jesus, "He is possessed by Beelzebul," and "By the prince of demons he drives out demons."  Summoning them, he began to speak to them in parables, "How can Satan drive out Satan?  If a kingdom is divided against itself, that kingdom cannot stand.  And if a house is divided against itself, that house will not be able to stand.  And if Satan has risen up against himself and is divided, he cannot stand; that is the end of him.  But no one can enter a strong man's house to plunder his property
unless he first ties up the strong man.  Then he can plunder his house.  Amen, I say to you, all sins and all blasphemies that people utter will be forgiven them.  But whoever blasphemes against the Holy Spirit will never have forgiveness, but is guilty of an everlasting sin."  For they had said, "He has an unclean spirit."


And if a house is divided against itself, that house will not be able to stand

OK Lord,

 I hear what you are saying here.  I am in a constant battle within myself and I will not be able to stand, to be strong, to be the person you made me to be as long as I persist.  I see it and it creates constant turmoil withing my heart and mind.  I do not trust myself more than I do not trust others, I think.  I allow one little doubt or thought to enter my mind and then the battle begins.  

Where do those doubts come from, Lord?  

Fear, they come from fear.  The evil one doesn't even have to do anything.  You are able to conjure up the dark side of everything in your mind and when you do you start going down, losing your strength and guesting your knowledge.  You give those thoughts power and they overcome what you believe or know to be true and soon they have the upper hand and you are in turmoil, going back and forth, around and around in your mind.  You find yourself turning from one negative thought or idea to another.   Soon you are surrounded by all the possible negative outcomes and you aren't even able to see above them or around them.  They dominate your view and confusion sets in and you allow the doubt to take you down.

You lose sight of reason and you hold on to the untruth and all the negative possibilities and the fear, the fear you bean with permeates your being and others pick up on it, they try to talk 'sense' into you but you refuse them.  You are stubborn and hold on to your false ideas and your mood changes in an instant.  And you find it difficult to get it back.  To get back to the peace you possessed with the truth, the light.  When you pull the shades down, you cannot see the truth in the darkness.  You have to stop those thoughts as soon as they occur.  Even if you are wrong, the result is not as bad as you make it and the negative consequences will not be as dark as you make them in your head and they will not last as long either.