He makes the deaf hear and the mute speak

Lord, do with me what you Will

Mark 7:31-37
Jesus left the district of Tyre and went by way of Sidon to the Sea of Galilee, into the district of the Decapolis.   And people brought to him a deaf man who had a speech impediment and begged him to lay his hand on him.  He took him off by himself away from the crowd.   He put his finger into the man's ears and, spitting, touched his tongue; then he looked up to heaven and groaned, and said to him, "Ephphatha!" (that is, "Be opened!")  And immediately the man's ears were opened, his speech impediment was removed, and he spoke plainly.   He ordered them not to tell anyone.   But the more he ordered them not to, the more they proclaimed it.   They were exceedingly astonished and they said, "He has done all things well.   He makes the deaf hear and the mute speak."

He makes the deaf hear and the mute speak

Lord,
You have done this for me.  You have been speaking to me my entire life but I did not hear you until that day, that day in 2004.  I heard you so clearly and I had no doubt it was you.  It's been seven years since that day and I have heard you in all that time, leading me, correcting me, consoling me, teaching me, counseling me, healing me and using me, even when I am not faithful to you, when I allow my feelings of anger, fear, doubt, rejection and so many others lead me away from what you desire from me and every time I regret it.  I suffer in some way because of my rebellion and my desire to control things.

You are learning even thought you do not embrace those things you do not wish to do ,with zeal, passion and a desire to please me, but with resignation that if you do not comply, you will regret it.  Well that is a step on the way to total abandonment to my will and I will take it.

Lord, I am sorry.  I do still have a will that does not want to do what I do not want to do even thought I know in my heart that it is what I must do and that it is what is best for me and for all involved.  Lord, I will work on embracing your will for me with more love and gratitude and a desire to please you because I really do know that is what will be best for me and it will save me pain and regrets.

You do that.  It would make me happy and you as well.  I love you and want the best for you and I alone know what is best and I will lead you.