begged him that they might touch only the tassel on his cloak; and as many as touched it were healed

Lord, may I never let go of you

Matthew 6:53-56
After making the crossing to the other side of the sea, Jesus and his disciples came to land at Gennesaret and tied up there.  As they were leaving the boat, people immediately recognized him.  They scurried about the surrounding country  and began to bring in the sick on mats to wherever they heard he was.  Whatever villages or towns or countryside he entered, they laid the sick in the marketplaces and begged him that they might touch only the tassel on his cloak; and as many as touched it were healed.

begged him that they might touch only the tassel on his cloak; and as many as touched it were healed

Lord,
You healed these people without even touching them.  They reached out and touched you, not even your person but your clothing. (OK I see, second class relic)  As many as touched your clothing were healed.  They came after you, they followed you.  I wonder what happened after they were healed.  Were they changed?  Did they change their ways?  What makes so many people who have experienced your miracles, your gifts forget so quickly and go back to their old ways?

Doubt, ingratitude, the world's disbelief, their  intellect, their free will, all of those things and more

Lord, how do we hold on to it?

Faith, you have the gift of faith, all do, but they have to hold on to it.  You have to hold on to it.  There are many ways for it to wriggle out of your grasp.  To hold on to it, you must focus on me, persevere, persevere in what you know in your heart.  Hold tight because the world is struggling to loosen your hands on it and make you drop it.  They don't usually pull it away, they just struggle with you to loosen your grip and YOU will let it fall and when it does, you have a choice to pick it back up or to kick it around like society does.  You can talk yourself into anything and out of anything.  Ultimately it is your choice.  I give you many chances to pick it back up.   I never give up.  I persevere because you mean that much to me.  Ultimately all I want for you is to spend eternity with me in heaven, but that is in your hands as well.  Will you, can you hold on to that gift?  The devil works night and day to pry it out of your hands, but he can  only do what you allow him to do.

Hold fast to the faith, keep the gifts and miracles in the front of your mind, stay close to me.  Follow me as the crowds did.  I loved them and I love you.  Not one person do I want to lose.  I died for ALL.   I am stingy in that way.  I want all my children with me for eternity, including you....and J.

She will come around, but give her time.