Thus they persecuted the prophets who were before you."

Mt 5:1-12

Let go, I won't leave you

When Jesus saw the crowds, he went up the mountain, and after he had sat down, his disciples came to him. He began to teach them, saying:

"Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the Kingdom of heaven. Blessed are they who mourn, for they will be comforted. Blessed are the meek, for they will inherit the land. Blessed are they who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they will be satisfied. Blessed are the merciful, for they will be shown mercy.
Blessed are the clean of heart, for they will see God. Blessed are the peacemakers, for they will be called children of God. Blessed are they who are persecuted for the sake of righteousness, for theirs is the Kingdom of heaven. Blessed are you when they insult you and persecute you and utter every kind of evil against you falsely because of me. Rejoice and be glad, for your reward will be great in heaven. Thus they persecuted the prophets who were before you."

Thus they persecuted the prophets who were before you."

Lord,

I have no clue if this is what you want from me, to suffer with this mental anguish. Father L says maybe it is. B says it is not. They have got me confused and I know that is not from you so which one is right?

They both are. I want to heal you, but not yet. You must be patient. There are lessons to learn here.

Lord, What lessons?

Trust me, my providence, my love, my ability to bring good out of it all. Every struggle, difficult time you go through gives you more knowledge experience, sympathy, empathy and understanding of how to help others. When you come through this, you will have an education, one that you cannot find in a book or class. I am with you. I need you to let go of the tight desperate hold you have on to me. The hold that is hanging on out of fear and anxiety. I want you to ease up and relax and let go and trust that I am with you. that I am not going anywhere. I need you to let go of the anxiety so you can feel my presence my calm, peace and you will have the assurance that I am with you if you falter. But you must falter to gain that trust you must know that you cannot do it alone to know that I am here and that you need me and that I will not leave you. I will not abandon you, but I do want you to let go of me so you can have freedom. Your hold on me is so tight and desperate. It is not a loving hold but one filled with fear. I do not want fear for you. I want peace and confidence. I want you to have confidence in yourself and in me and in my promise to you to be with you. Your grip is out of fear of losing me. You don't want to let go because you fear abandonment. They all abandoned you, but I never will.