"I cannot do anything on my own… I do not seek my own will but the will of the one who sent me."

Rest, just rest

John 5:17-30
Jesus answered the Jews:   "My Father is at work until now, so I am at work."  For this reason they tried all the more to kill him, because he not only broke the sabbath but he also called God his own father, making himself equal to God.

Jesus answered and said to them, "Amen, amen, I say to you, the Son cannot do anything on his own, but only what he sees the Father doing; for what he does, the Son will do also.  For the Father loves the Son and shows him everything that he himself does, and he will show him greater works than these, so that you may be amazed.  For just as the Father raises the dead and gives life, so also does the Son give life to whomever he wishes.  Nor does the Father judge anyone, but he has given all judgment to the Son, so that all may honor the Son just as they honor the Father.  Whoever does not honor the Son does not honor the Father who sent him.  Amen, amen, I say to you, whoever hears my word and believes in the one who sent me has eternal life and will not come to condemnation, but has passed from death to life.  Amen, amen, I say to you, the hour is coming and is now here when the dead will hear the voice of the Son of God, and those who hear will live.  For just as the Father has life in himself, so also he gave to the Son the possession of life in himself.  And he gave him power to exercise judgment, because he is the Son of Man.  Do not be amazed at this, because the hour is coming in which all who are in the tombs will hear his voice and will come out, those who have done good deeds to the resurrection of life, but those who have done wicked deeds to the resurrection of condemnation.

"I cannot do anything on my own; I judge as I hear, and my judgment is just, because I do not seek my own will but the will of the one who sent me."

"I cannot do anything on my own… I do not seek my own will but the will of the one who sent me."

Lord,

I know I cannot do anything on my own.  I want so much to be pleasing to you.  I want so much to do your will, but as I sit here I wonder if I am.  You want me to get more rest but I  wake up earlier and earlier to get here earlier and earlier.  And I am sleepy before I even get out of the door to come here.  I was afraid it was mania, but maybe it’s not because I am sleepy.  Lord, I do not want that to come back.  I want these feelings of excitement and love for you to be just that, not a chemical imbalance.

What did Dr. M tell you?

That there is no mental disorder that makes you love God more.

OK, Lord, that is true, so it must be genuine feelings of love.  Help me sleep more at night so there will be no question.

I will but you must train yourself.  Focus on rest for now.  You must rest.

I want to Lord, help me.

This is as important as any other aspect of your physical health and it will help the others.

I did not believe that before, but I do now.  Help me Lord.