ask for whatever you want and it will be done for you. By this is my Father glorified, that you bear much fruit and become my disciples

You brought me through the storm, Lord

John 15:1-8

Jesus said to his disciples: "I am the true vine, and my Father is the vine grower. He takes away every branch in me that does not bear fruit, and every one that does he prunes so that it bears more fruit. You are already pruned because of the word that I spoke to you. Remain in me, as I remain in you. Just as a branch cannot bear fruit on its own unless it remains on the vine, so neither can you unless you remain in me. I am the vine, you are the branches. Whoever remains in me and I in him will bear much fruit, because without me you can do nothing. Anyone who does not remain in me will be thrown out like a branch and wither;
people will gather them and throw them into a fire and they will be burned. If you remain in me and my words remain in you, ask for whatever you want and it will be done for you. By this is my Father glorified,
that you bear much fruit and become my disciples."

 ask for whatever you want and it will be done for you. By this is my Father glorified,
that you bear much fruit and become my disciples

Lord,

I was just thinking about J.  I have been asking for her return for years now.  I was thinking, Lord, where is she?  Then I heard you say, "It does not say when.  That is not part of the promise."  You have helped me through this.  I was so broken hearted and fearful when I saw her fall away from you and as I've seen her get farther and farther rather than closer.  I have often been deeply hurt and fearful and I find it so difficult to hold on to the hope in your promise to bring her back.  Lord, I am watching her get farther still and she even rejects you, your word and your church, all that she once held close to her heart.  In the times that I become more aware of her rejection, I feel a stabbing pain in my gut and I am not only disappointed in her but in you as well.  I want her back in your arms now.  Lord, but I know that I don't get to demand anything and get it.  Right now, today I believe that your timing is perfect.  I trust your promise to me and I will try so hard to hold on to the hope and go forward in confidence in you.  I do not have a clue how you do it, but I know you always come through.  You have brought me through such a horrendous storm, one that was so thick at times that I could not see my hand in front of my face.  As I sit here and look back, I regret all the time I spent in doubt and disbelief and in self pity.  I have been so self centered that sometimes it is hard to look outward while I was so self absorbed, I neglected everything around me.  I judged others as shallow and made it all about me.

It's okay, you are through it now.  You can handle all that comes at your now.  You have a strength you did not have two years ago.  Your footing is on solid ground.  You will not crumble in the future the way you did in the past.  You've already seen that fruit with C.  Two years ago it would have devastated you.  You would have been angry, self righteous, unforgiving and you would feel like and act like a victim.   Now you have acknowledged it, felt the pain and moved on while you keep praying for her conversion and desire to heal.  That never would have happened two years ago.