The Advocate, the Holy Spirit whom the Father will send in my name--he will teach you everything and remind you of all that I told you."

You can step out of  the noose any time you choose

John 4:21-26

Jesus said to his disciples: "Whoever has my commandments and observes them is the one who loves me.
Whoever loves me will be loved by my Father, and I will love him and reveal myself to him." Judas, not the Iscariot, said to him, "Master, then what happened that you will reveal yourself to us and not to the world?"
Jesus answered and said to him, "Whoever loves me will keep my word, and my Father will love him, and we will come to him and make our dwelling with him. Whoever does not love me does not keep my words; yet the word you hear is not mine but that of the Father who sent me.

"I have told you this while I am with you. The Advocate, the Holy Spirit whom the Father will send in my name--he will teach you everything and remind you of all that I told you."

The Advocate, the Holy Spirit whom the Father will send in my name--he will teach you everything and remind you of all that I told you."

Lord,
I still doubt and fear.  I am so sorry.  I want so much to trust and just let go but something holds me back.

The devil holds you back.  He knows how close you are and he knows your weaknesses, confidence in yourself, fear, perfectionism, doubt, ridiculed, being judged...  Those are barriers to letting go.  Your lack of trust is mostly in yourself.   Look at the fruit.  I know you fear that he may be the one who speaks to you, to fool you.  You are suspicious and so afraid of being wrong that you will not allow yourself the freedom to let go and trust, believe and to be wrong.  You fear the loss of self control so much that you keep a tight reign on yourself.  And when you wonder too far from the security of what you actually believe, you almost choke yourself and instead of cutting off what binds you, you run back to the safety and discomfort of what is familiar rather than taking a chance at being right.  You will not win the battle until you believe you can.  You have to have resolve in your heart .  You have to want the freedom more than the comfort of the binds that have left you with scars around your neck.  You are so tightly held around you neck, that you can hardly breath sometimes.

Lord, what is holding me back from completing the script on the Eucharist?  

Fear, doubt, the same things that hold you back from the success you seek in all areas.  You have been successful in your weight loss and now you live in constant fear and doubt that you can maintain it.  The next step to insure that is exercise and you resist. it. 

Why do I resist it?

You do not like it, you are lazy with things you do not enjoy.,  You procrastinate than you regret.

Procrastination and avoidance is your barrier with the things you need to do but do not want to do,.  You do those things I ask when they do not directly affect you personally.  You still hold on to what is easy and comfortable in those areas.  Believing the diet was easy made it easy.  Believing in success in these areas will do the same, try it.